Self awareness can be scary when you don't like what you know as the truth or that your thinking is not "mainstream" In the past few days, I realized: 1) Do I love  my mum? I am coping very well with the care-giving of my ill mother because I do not really love her. I suddenly remembered how affected I was when fortune teller predicted my son had a tough life, how uncomfortable I will be if I upset my wife due to my sensitivity. I do not really have heartaches regarding my mum, to me, it really is doing my share of responsibility to care for her as well as possible to the best of my ability. 2) Fatigue is  a mind thing. While I am more tired than usual with longer "working hours", I had it worse before. During National service, while taking care of my son when ......