Feeling really lonely surrounded by my loved ones... My son laughing heartily with my niece, and also quarreling loudly. My poor wife furiously trying to finish her school work on a Friday night. Smiling at my parents when I cooked earlier, trying to be really upbeat. Looking at the whatsapp group of my close friends talking about things which I didn't even comprehend. I am talking to myself. My mum needs chemo, 6 months first, before radiotherapy. Initial good news of successful surgery and needing only radiotherapy is short lived. My work is piling up due to reduced time at work juggling work and care-giving. My wife asked me about my mum, didn't ask about me. I am pissed with my irresponsible brother. Worried about my worn-up sister and wife. Stressed over work. Wondering how the final bill of hospitalization will look like. I ......