In the past few months, I hardly had the mood to do anything or even to live.

It is not just random negativity.
To make it short, my fiancée and I had broken up when our wedding is supposed to be held this year end. Last year, she voiced out that she is not ready to get married and that we will not be happy together. (There was no 3rd party) It may sound like a joke that our love still exist but we realized what she mentioned was rather true after further months of trying.

It is unbelievable that someone who was so close to you and there for you for 4 years suddenly just disappear. Or perhaps the sole real meaning of life just vanished.

We were lucky most wedding preparations were not yet made but the heartbreak is real. Being someone who overthinks, it was surely a rough period of my