Some days ago I was deeply surprised by my son saying “you’re the best, daddy”. I had just showered him and changed him into his pjs. Completely spontaneously, he uttered those words. I didn’t teach him that or coaxed it out. Through the last few years, I have struggled with many losses. Though I know the right way to think, doubt often comes and clouds my mind. Having cancer felt like God ambushed me around the corner with a baseball bat, and stomped on me repeatedly while I was down. It was very hard to get up. Besides my health, the brakes were applied to my career. I know its unavoidable, but I still feel envious of my peers who are directors and team leaders at my age. They travel business class, have nice offices, and have teams of people at their beck and call. For