Since young I find it hard to be happy, to live in the moment, to find purpose of life. That’s partially why I created this blog – to record my journey and find myself. Tonight / recently, I am watching this Chinese Show – 异人之下之决战！碧游村。 I am thinking if I should publish this post today, but I guess since you are reading now, it means it has been published. I can’t sleep after watching this show in the evening with my family. Now is only few minutes before midnight. The rest are all sleeping except me AND this is not the only night which I can’t sleep. This is only one of the nights. This is not a very positive post with positive vibes as compared to my usual posts, but it is a real and truthful post in life – MY LIFE. The SHOW There is one very interesting character 陈朵. She is totally like me...